I imagine I have the same complaint that most people have these days…. I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired. Seriously, I’ve been dealing with the worst cold I’ve had in over 2 years. I generally like to brag about how, although I have cancer, I’m one of the healthiest people I know. I strive to eat healthy, exercise, take my vitamins, see my docs on time. Anything and everything to help me acheive my optimum wellness, despite living with cancer. And it seems, for the most part, that this approach has worked well for me the last few years. I don’t know if because my body is constantly fighting cancer, that its a pro- at taking care of the little bugs? But I’ve been very fortunate to have not had the flu in several years, and generally avoid most colds. All without getting a flu shot (I don’t believe in their “affectiveness”), or taking too many unneccesary medicines.
Unfortunately, for Christmas this year, I seemed to have caught this annoying cold bug that even one week into the new year is still bothering me. Annoying! So needless to say, it’s been a hamper to my New Year’s spirit. But I guess it does allow for reflection on what is actually better these days.
Had my appointment with Dr. Al Benson (my oncologist here in Chicago) on Jan2 and he reported that my recent MRI showed that my disease was still minimal, and that the liver appeared to have improved over the previous scans (which were in Sept – and complicated by lingering after-affects of the surgery I had last Janaury). To be perfectly honest, it was nice to hear that they think everything is good, but based on all the confusion over previous scans – I don’t necessarily have 100% confidence in the reports. However, being that I’m feeling good, the blood markers are good, and I don’t really feel like dealing with any new stress at the moment, I figure I’ll go ahead and buy into the positive report. Even I don’t have the energy at the moment to argue about my condition. And to think – I’m generaly an optimist.
And on that note, instead of continuing to linger on about this annoying sore throat and cough, I’ll shift my attention to reflecting on how much better I feel over all compared to this time last year. January 26 will mark my 1-yr post liver surgery. (Note to self – start planning celebration.) Mind you, I wasn’t on my death-bed by any means, but the every day symptoms related to advanced cancer and carcinoid syndrome were just that – an every day occurrence. Recovering from the 10hr + surgery was more than I ever imagined it would be (who knew I wouldn’t be able to go sky-diving 3 months later?!). It certainly is nice, that a year later I experience very few symptoms related to carcinoid, and finally…. FINALLY… I am feeling almost like a normal human being. I can sleep normally – on any side! I can stretch without pain. My abdominal muscles are getting stronger. I can walk fast (or fast enough to keep up with the hustle and bustle of busy city folk). Dealing with this stupid cold at least has allowed me to fully appreciate how normal I feel I now. Woohoo! Instead of being slowed down by a surgery, I can be slowed down by the common cold… just like everyone else 🙂
In closing, I hope you all had a terrific holiday season and are well on your way to a healthy New Year!
“It is amazing how much crisper the general experience of life becomes when your body is given a change to develop a little strength.” — Frank Duff